I want a split keyboard I can walk around and type on because I am constantly wanting to put things in blogs that come up all day but never remember them later, or even if I do I can always talk about so much more but I think the biggest revelations are lost, those little things that just occur and then are lost.
I dont want to give up, but I feel like I am out of control of my life. I am constantly fighting for something that I am not even certain my partner wants. she says she does but she doesn’t seem interested when I want to talk about it, or motivated to help make any of these things happen. she just nods her head and says yea that’s a great idea, at best. I shouldn’t go forward with something that I don’t have any reason to believe will actually make her happy because how should I know, and she told me I ruined her life. She said this is the worst trip of her life. If I cant make her happy then she deserves a chance to be happy and so do I. I want to be happy, but I am not completely blind.
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